Musings of a Muddled Mess

Fear.  It's everywhere around us, present in so many ways. Am I afraid of the dark? Do I fear someone's reaction? Do I fear spiritual warfare?  In so many ways I think fear has become like love in our culture. The true depth of it is lost because of the various ways we see it all the time.  I have been thinking on fear a lot lately. I have come to a time in my life where fear does not rule my daily life. That's really crazy for me to say but it's true. I have such a confidence in God and his work I am not afraid of near as many things on a daily basis. Now don't get me wrong I still have fears. Recently I have had a family member dealing with some pretty scary things that leave a lot of unknowns, yes there is a level of fear and worry that will naturally come with that. But I can honestly say fear is not in the drivers seat of my life right now. While I am confident in God and hope that I have conquered this particular stronghold in my life, I also know better th...

12 years. 12 years ago yesterday I was having a rough day. I was fighting to be patient, to trust God. I was looking for his will and was ready for some clear answers. 12 years ago my infamous friend was singing "time is on my side" and "hooked on a feeling" to me every chance he got. 12 years ago I was that typical college girl. I had a good group of close friends, we were on the downhill slide of college and starting to dream about the future. 12 years ago I promised God not to run ahead of His timing. 12 Years ago I went to the BSU to watch a movie with friends knowing one particular person would be there. 12 years ago I had no idea that movie would be a pivotal event in my story. 12 years ago I sat talking, praying for one of the 2 guys left to leave so I could talk to the other. 12 years ago I stood waiting for my friend to come out of the bathroom so I could talk to him one last time before I went out the door and home. 12 years ago we had the most elementary ...